Teardrops From Heaven; A Mother's Rose
Dedication…a mother dearly missed
Lois Lenore MacIver (nee Pritchard)
In Memory of An Angel
Miss You Mom
Dear Mom,
I awoke this morning in a rather pensive mood. An emptiness rested upon my soul, a heartache, longing, tearful moments inescapable as I raised myself from sleep.
Sometimes memories work on me like an aggressive cancer, spreading to depths I previously did not know of or dare to go. I feel as though we were separated unjustly, you just slipped away. Not a harsh word you ever spoke nor evidenced by obvious thought…yet the ravages of your illness took you away. So underserved was the sickness that befell you, the cognitive failure, cherished moments in your life lost.
I sit here in the silence of an early dawn, breathless, longing to just see you again. Yes, I have visions of your glowing smile, the laughter you bathed upon tired souls. You cared and you coddled till you had no more. You nurtured, you comforted this child for all your years. Regardless of the times I made you cross, testing your trust, not deserving of your kindness, it was then that you loved me beyond recompense.
And now as I reflect on the time that we had, I am truly touched to the core of my very being. For all that you shared, so little you asked, laying there in final moments in stillness, dream state. For the days that you paused before passing away, comatose, lifeless, so very at peace, I sat by your side with your hand in mine, a mother and son’s affections for perhaps the last time. How painfully hard it was for me to gently release of your hand…all I wanted in those moments was to forever stay.
It is in these moments now that I dearly miss you so. You were my heart and my breath, my vision, my soul. Though our times were filled with kindness and joy, though we shared as no others I still feel the pain. Our separation haunts me this very day and I wish, how I wish just to see you again. I pray that wherever you are and whatever you do you may carry the gift of our love with you. Some day perhaps by your side I will be, our hands clasped in memory, the warmth and energy…transference between a mother and son, a life filled with blessings forever gone.
Life passes by now, an eternity, minutes turn to hours, days into years. In life you inspired the person I am and in your memory I cherish all that you believed. Perhaps in my dreams I will know you are near, my angel and saviour, my reason for being.
I miss you more than words will ever convey….how my heart aches this morning just to see you again.
Love always, your son, your friend.
